I’m not sure I’m really in the right place to be writing this at the moment, but we shall see…
2) I gained my CPT3A – which means I can assess students towards access arrangements. It’s an M level course, and I was really proud to finish it.
3) I am halfway through my SENCo Award. Again, this is an M level course, so it’s quite challenging fitting essays and research in around work. My tutor is always positive about my work (even when I think that it’s not so good!)
4) I was brave (foolish, some say) and once again went travelling on my own in the summer. It’s actually been a while since I went alone, and at times, particularly in Norway, it was quite lonely – I should remember that people will talk to you in a Youth Hostel or a tent but not a hotel – but I spoke to lots of people and met some great folks when I was on the Isle of Wight. I also, rather rashly, agreed to help on Brownie Pack Holiday, helping cater for 250 girls for a week. I only really knew one other person there and he was only there for part of the week, but hey, this is Guiding and we are all friends. It was a great week and I didn’t want to come home.
5) I have continued with my voluntary work. Although I had to step down from my role supporting the NIHL Blaze due to pressures of work, I’m still on call to run the clock for MK Lightning games. I continue to act as Treasurer for Coventry Wayfarers, a Mencap affiliated group for adults with learning difficulties. This year I’ve dragged them into the 21st Century and we now have a blog – which club members update on a weekly basis – as well as a facebook page and twitter. It’s mostly volunteers using them at the moment, but we’ll get there.
Five things I would like to do in the coming year
1) Find a job that makes me happy – and makes me feel like I belong. I only started my current job in January 2014, but this past term it has changed beyond all recognition and it’s not physically possible to do everything that I have ‘strategic responsibility’ for. There’s also been little support through these changes and until I can have a meeting with my union rep and the head I can’t see a way forward. Perhaps I should be looking for a SENCo post back in mainstream…
2) Get to the final few ice rinks at both Elite and EPL level. There aren’t many I haven’t visited, thanks to helping with the NIHL Blaze for so long, but the further away rinks like DUndee, Fife and Bracknell still elude my list.
3)I am looking forward to the SEN #teachmeet in Oxford in February. Hopefully I’ll feel I have something useful to contribute.
4) Travel. This feels like a bit of a cop out as it’s always there, but I aim to go further afield this year, to get some more countries coloured in on my map.
5) And finally, I think, at the moment, to keep active. Be that swimming, ice hockey, walking, baking, sewing or reading – I will not let work consume my every waking hour. Just because I don’t have that someone special to share my life with, does not mean I don’t deserve a proper life-work balance.
Who am I kidding? I’d like nothing more than to find someone to share my life with. I’ve been on my own for such a long time, and then, for a short while, there was someone special. And now he’s gone, I’m lonely. I’ve never felt this way before, maybe it’s a sign of getting older, I don’t know. I’ve reached the point where I want someone to share things with. Don’t get my wrong, I’ve got an amazing circle of friends, but it’s not the same. I want someone to come home to. To have dinner with and talk about how the day has been. Someone I can rely on to be there for me – and to let me be there for them. Where do I start looking? (and if you suggest on line dating I will hit you!)